A week out is too close not to share part of my new song with you.
Single hits iTunes next Tuesday…
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if you chose me.
If we could possibly be okay or if it would just be doomed from the start because of all the karma we have against us.
I think we would be doomed. Quite possibly just because I would be sure to make a mess of things. It’s interesting that someone who hates messes so much sure does know how to make them.
I can remember being probably 5 or 6 years old and sitting in one of my dad’s friends houses and thinking something (I don’t remember what the exact thought was) But I thought to myself “I am not going to feel better unless I say this thing out loud. I have to say it.”
Maybe it is due to my ever present OCD, but I still feel this way on a regular basis. If I feel something about you. I am going to tell you. Or else it just sits in my head and goes around and around and around until it comes out twice as hard as it should have in the first place.
This obviously isn’t true in my professional life. I know when to keep my mouth shut.. sometimes. But in my personal life. Definitely true.
I know all of this sounds ridiculously crazy. But especially after losing someone very close to me that I didn’t tell how I felt nearly enough. I can’t stand the thought of losing other people that I care about without being honest and upfront.
So just a fair warning. If I am saying a lot of things. All the time. It’s just because I have to.
That time of night I cannot get you off my mind and would do anything to have you be thinking of me too.
And maybe you are. But I must say I am starting to have a hard time deciding if it is more painful to have you in my life or out of it. I’m certain I haven’t felt this way about someone in years, although I’m not certain what this way is. All I know is this. That the thought of us never ever being able to be together is unbearable at times and I think if I knew in the end it’d work out. I’d just sit back and wait.
I would give a lot of money to not have a friend lecture me about my life for an entire week.
“hmm I am sure Meghan needs a lecture about everything she is doing wrong today.”
Here’s the thing. I don’t. I promise. If I am in need of a lecture. Or life lesson. I’ll let you know. otherwise probably giving myself a harder time then you possibly could.
Especially when you aren’t clued into my life enough to give me one.
(Another new thought)
I graduate in less than a week. Can I please just go back to high school now? Where life was way less complicated and I never had to worry about the first two thoughts.
I don’t write on here nearly enough. I’ve forgotten how good it feels even if no one reads it.
Please let me get into Grad School and be a Hoosier where I belong.
— C.S Lewis (via llbolek)
2012-13 Season Instagrammed - Part One
In church yesterday, our priest said something that made me feel really good about Easter. He talked about how Easter was a time for starting over, and for some reason, I felt a bit of relief at this idea.
I am in great need of a fresh start. I think I would pay a lot of money to forget the majority of decisions I have made in the last four years. or 8.
I am sitting here, four weeks from graduation with the door wide open to me for a fresh start and starting over yet there is still a little piece of me that is terrified to take that leap.
5 AM and your snores are ricocheting off my walls. Not that I really mind.
Even in the worst of circumstances, I can’t help but be glad you are here..
Anonymous asked: Hi Misha! You're obviously very conscious of what you eat. I'm a student with a very limited bank account, and I often buy unhealthy things because it's cheaper (and more convenient). When you were a student did you eat as healthy as you do now?
Hey! There are some long posts back in the archives about cheap meals and cheap grocery ideas/lists. I’ll look back and see if I can repost those...
free-wheel asked: How long does it usually take to write one song, say, 'Stop This Train' or 'Walt Grace's Submarine Test?'
Every song is different. ‘Stop This Train’ was about a week of writing verses, and ‘Submarine Test’ happened in three obsessive days with a white...